My week serving the poor of St. Louis

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This past week I worked with the Missionaries of Charity in St. Louis while on spring break. There were 7 girls total who went from Benedictine to spend time with the sisters and serve with them on a mission trip.

I didn’t know what to expect. None of us did. As the trip leader, I had spoken with the sisters multiple times about details. We knew they had a soup kitchen and shelter for women, but didn’t know how the week would actually pan out. Thankfully, everyone went with the flow.

As we pulled up last Saturday, we thought we had the wrong address. The building was old and in a sketchy area with a wire fence. It was the right building though. This is the poorest area I’ve ever worked in. Buildings were falling apart. There are so many people who are homeless or barely getting by all around the sisters.

During the week we got up at 4:30am to get to morning prayer with the sisters followed by a half hour of meditation, a break to make breakfast for the ladies in the shelter, then Mass. Then we’d head to the soup kitchen to help with food preparation, serving, and clean up. It was beautiful to see all the volunteers that came throughout the week to help. After that was all cleaned up there was noon prayer and then time for lunch (and resting which almost never happened 🙂 ) until adoration which went from 2-3. As soon as that was over, we worked in the after-school program until about 6ish when everything was cleaned up. We made our own food during the week, so we took time before evening prayer (at 7) to make dinner. After that, we finished up any projects the sisters had given us and tried to get to bed around 9/9:30ish when lights were supposed to be out.

Exhausted just reading that? It was around 3 hours of prayer and 6 hours of apostolate work each day. We went to a psychiatric ward, nursing home, and refugee camp to pass out food and/or pray too. And all that’s not counting a bunch of other things we did. It felt so good to get so much done and collapse at the end of the day.

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Group picture!

At one point during the week, one of the sisters just kind of smiled at us and asked if we ever thought we could be that tired. Nope, probably not. On Tuesday we were completely pooped, but that didn’t stop us. We still got up early and worked hard. After all, it’s what the sisters do every day. Could we not do it for a week?

The sisters were so inspiring. Each of them was from a completely different country and culture, but they worked so well together. They truly try to “serve Jesus in disguise” like Mother Teresa taught. It’s kind of hard to put into words what it was like. I mean, they got up at 4:40 every morning and are completely dedicated to following God’s will. They don’t advertise their needs. But they told us if we needed anything to let them know and they would pray about it. And guess what? They are immensely blessed with their volunteers and supplies that are donated.

You know how people sometimes say that in serving others they were helped more than the people they helped? Well, that sounds kind of confusing, but hopefully you get the picture. That’s how I felt this week.

Sure, we served meals and helped create a safe place for kids in troubled homes to come to after school. But I feel like my life was changed more than theirs.

It was blissful to be away from the internet and homework. I ignored thoughts of my to-do list until heading back. I sent only a few texts. It was glorious! Of course it wasn’t fun to get back to over 200 emails, buuuut it was nice while it lasted. I think I’ll institute a technology-free day from now on.

Although I was physically exhausted by the end of each day, praying with the sisters reminded me why we were there: to serve Jesus in the poorest of the poor. And we did. But at the same time Jesus used the time to ask us to dig deeper than that and become closer to him. He was so present in our work. The sisters recognize how blessed they are, and their trust in God is so deep. It was amazing.

They were smiling all the time and cracking up (especially one of the sisters who was hilarious). It just goes to show how following Christ with abandon truly does bring immense joy.

On Friday when I was in the chapel praying the sister’s apostolate prayer with everyone before serving the soup kitchen meal, it kind of hit me. There was Jesus, hanging on the cross with the words “I THIRST” right beside him. He thirsts for me. For you. As much as we all have the desire to love and be loved, Jesus longs for each one of us individually. He already died for us, and now desires that we love him in return. But not just love him. Most of us can claim we love him. But the sisters this last week showed me what following Christ with total abandon looks like. Their trust in him is complete.

I was so inspired by the simplicity of their lives (take their chapel with nearly no furniture for example, the lack of washers/dryers, and no internet). Jesus is their reason and cheerleader for their work, and is always present in their lives.

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The chapel had a couple chairs for the oldest sisters and a bench in back for books. Hello floor! We were great friends for the week.

The sisters surprised us at the end of the week by giving us each a 2nd and 3rd degree relic of Mother Teresa, including miraculous medals she actually touched.

*sigh*

It was such a beautiful week and I am so thankful for the opportunity to refocus my life.

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How cool is that?!?! We were all excited about the table and had to take pictures at it 🙂

Jesus, thank you for the beautiful sisters in St. Louis who opened their home to us and were so generous during this mission trip. Please bless each of the ladies in the shelter and kids in the after school program and help them to encounter your love through the Missionaries of Charity. Keep the sisters safe. Thank you for showing me the beauty of your love in action, and help me to never forget to love you in the poorest of the poor, whoever that might be each day. Use me to be a light to those I come in contact with, and please give me the grace to be a witness to the joy your love brings. Most of all, thank you for showing me this week that your love is deeper than anything I could ever imagine and you are infinitely deserving of my love. You don’t demand it, but you thirst for it. Help me to satiate your thirst by loving you and serving you in those I come in contact with not just on mission trips, but in the beauty of the little moments every day of my life.

 

P.S. Read the I THIRST meditation here. Just do it. And then share it with your friends!

7 Quick Takes – Vol. 50: Life, Lent Awesomeness, and Chucking Laptops

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Tomorrow morning I’m heading out to work with the Missionaries of Charity in St. Louis! As our contact sister told me, they live very simply. They don’t have internet. They start their days at 5am with prayer and have set times for serving the poor during each day. I’m really looking forward to disconnecting from the world a little (*ahem* LOT) because I’m just tired right now. Tired of not sleeping and tired of being busy. Tired of too many things going on. I’ve gotten better at mastering that, prioritizing, and focusing on what’s important, but still. It’ll be so nice to focus on doing good work without the distractions of daily life.

This is me figuratively chucking the noise of life into utter destruction so I can be still on the beach and contemplate life. Watermarks are for dramatic effect.

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Which brings me to an interesting point. I’ve realized in recent months that I am very much an introvert in that I value my time alone reading, writing, adoration, whatever it is. It makes life so much more peaceful. People often think being an introvert means you’re shy, but that’s not necessarily true. It focuses on how you’re recharged. I know that I am recharged by being alone and praying, reading, and writing. Or small groups talking with people. That’s awesome too. It’s true that I was painfully shy as a child. But I’ve worked very hard to overcome that, and I’m fairly certain most people at school would not guess that about me. Being an introvert just means I appreciate the time I have to myself. Of course, there is such a thing as too much time alone, so it’ll be nice to be on this mission trip with some lovely ladies for company!

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It’s really bothering me how many times I’ve used “I” in this post. How do I not write like that?!?!

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Look at them conspiring to get us to waste our lives on their website. HAHA. I beat you! No more wasting time.

Guess what? I actually did one of my Lent/March goals already! All my Facebook friends are sorted into lists and it’s made so much of a difference. I sorted them into my family, non-family that I want to see updates from, college classmates I don’t particularly care to see every update from, and the “Why am I friends with you?” list. I felt kind of bad categorizing people, but now I just open it up and see a few updates from the most important lists, check those, and BAM. Done. If you’re spending too much time on there, I would recommend trying this out!

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Want to be a super awesome person? Help me spread the word about my fundraising campaign to replace lost funds from taking an unpaid pro-life internship this summer! Read more here. If you were to spread the word while I’m away without internet, and I were to come back to an amazing response, that would be quite lovely. Just sayin’ . . . .

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Did you hear the beautiful news about Archbishop Fulton Sheen’s possible impending canonization?!?!?! It’s pretty amazing that we have YouTube videos of a potential saint.

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I can’t think of what else to write here, and it’s time to hit the sack, so have a lovely weekend! See you on the other side of a mission trip 🙂

For more Quick Takes, visit Conversion Diary!

March Goals

It’s that time of month again . . . time to be accountable. Here are my February goals and how I did:

1. Finish the blog everyday in February challenge.

DONE! It was a lot of fun, a little bit hard, and a good exercise.

2. Write at least 3 articles for Live Action.

What is my problem with this? I wrote one. As I was writing it, I kept asking myself why I don’t do it more. It’s partially because I’ve been trying really hard to not bash people over the web and be a more positive influence on people. A lot of headlines related to life issues are bad, so I choose not to write about many of them. Somehow I need to find a balance.

3. Name one baby each week through 50 Million Names and do a different gesture for each one.

I’ve named 3 total. This past weekend we had an event on campus where we got together people for a pro-life movie night and named babies beforehand. Then we wrote letters to each one telling them how loved they are and put them together in a binder which is now on display in our student union. It was so beautiful!

4. Keep up the exercise, 9-5 thing, and adoration (when it starts).

I’m not out of my room strictly 9-5 each day, but do go to the library to study during breaks instead of coming back to my room where homework comes to die. That’s been wonderful! Adoration is lovely. My Christian Moral Life professor described contemplation as “soaking in the Jesus tan”, and I absolutely love my time chillin’ with Jesus. Exercise is awesome because I don’t feel like a marshmallow! Whoohoo! Being able to do the whole ultimate boot camp workout feels like quite an accomplishment, AND I just got down in my pajamas and did 15 push ups. Boom.

5. Make an effort to do random acts of kindness at least once a week.

We made valentines for all of our dorm mates and I did other stuff too which felt so good! But I can’t tell you what exactly it was because that would defeat the purpose.

6. Finish the 4 books I’m in the middle of!

Fail. But I’m so close! Definitely will have these done soon.

7. Set aside an hour a week to get back to reaching out to people online about abortion.

Fail. Fail. Fail. How did I forget about this? BUT I’ve been going every Saturday to sidewalk counsel and you can find a beautiful recent experience with that here.

8. Share at least 1 inspirational quote or video on Facebook every week.

Hmm, didn’t tally this up, but I started an inspirational photo album on there. And I’ve made an effort to share good things too.

February was a good month, but it went really fast. March will probably too since I’ll be gone for 10 days on a mission trip! I’m leading a group of 7 ladies to work with the missionaries of charity in St. Louis, and can’t wait to get back to tell you about it. The ol’ blog here will be quiet while I’m away, but I’ll be back!

 

Here are my goals for March which include much of what I’m doing for Lent (but not all):

1. Start my day by reviewing Mother Teresa’s 7 Steps to a Holier Life and doing a morning offering.

2. Stations every Friday

3. Remember to write down more prayer intentions each day, and ask people if there’s anything specific I can pray for them about.

Hey! Do you have anything to add here? I’ll be praying for specific people each day (like usual) and would love to include your intentions.

4. 10 minutes of spiritual reading each day (for Lent)

My goal is to finish Lumen Fidei (over half way now), A People of Hope (so close!), Mere Christianity, A Biblical Walk Through the Mass, and the Book of Luke before Easter. 10 minutes is just a start (the bare minimum) and I hope to increase the amount of time.

5. Sort Facebook friends/pages into categories so I spend less time on there

Sorry people, but your hamburger and pets may not be applicable to my life. There’s just so much noise out there, and I’m going to work on cutting it down by doing this. That way I can choose who to look at updates from, and who to only check on occasionally.

6. Read articles intentionally

Enough with the Buzzfeed quizzes and tips for how to have PERFECT hair/nails/teeth/organization/whatever. Those do not contribute to my holiness or happiness so goodbye. Only read articles that have some value to them.

7. Write letters & send random texts

My youngest sister sends the cutest letters. She’s at that stage where she writes phonetically and it’s absolutely hilarious. How fun would it be to make people’s days with a little note?!?! People appreciate being cared about, so be the reason someone smiles!

8. Go to Mass twice a week (other than Sunday)

9. Sleep more

Do yourself and the world a favor by being coherent. Getting off the internet and tackling homework/things to do before 11pm would help with this.

Well, that’s it for now. I hope you’ve had time to sort out lenten goals and are able to take this time to become a better version of yourself! Here’s to a fruitful and transformative Lent.

Honored.

Since beginning pro-life work, I have been amazed at the opportunities sent my way. Seriously. I have no way to describe the ways God has given me to exercise the gifts and talents he’s blessed me with.

After a sidewalk counseling training session at Benedictine College
After a sidewalk counseling training session at BC

If no one in my family supported my work, I’d still do it because I believe it’s right. If my friends teased me because of it (okay, sometimes they think it’s a little much 😉 ) I would still continue it because it’s right. If my college tried to silence my voice, I would still do pro-life work because it’s right. And I feel called to it. But the support I have has not threatened my work. It’s nearly blown my mind.

Sometimes I feel completely unworthy of the amazing people and opportunities I have been (and continue to be) given. Really, God? Who am I to be doing all this? I’m not anyone special. But then I remember that God doesn’t call the equipped. He equips the called. And I continue this work because I feel called to it. It’s what I’m good at and passionate about.

March for Life 2014

This summer I am honored to have the opportunity to partner with RealOptions in a pro-life internship where I will be working with church and community leaders to build partnerships and to create awareness for the services of RealOptions: professional medical services, practical support for women and men facing unplanned pregnancies, prevention education for students, and post-abortion services. They are a fabulous life-affirming alternative to abortion, and I’m excited to work with them.

A wonderful family friend offered to help me set up a fundraising campaign to make this unpaid internship possible and to replace lost income.

If you’re able, I would be honored to have you join my work through your support. And if you’re not able to contribute personally, it would mean a great deal to me if you could share this campaign. You can do so by sharing this post, or by going to the campaign link and sharing from there on all forms of social media. Here’s the promotional video I made:

In just the past couple hours of this campaign being “live”, the support has been incredible. It moves me to see so many people supportive of my work. I’m almost in tears at this point because I can hardly believe the response. I don’t even know what to say except “thank you”. It’s so encouraging to see so many people supporting work that can be so hard sometimes.

Though I have to say, there are at least 10 joyful moments for every difficult one in this movement.

Laura with Abby Johnson, a pro-life inspiration, at the March for Life 2014
Meeting Abby Johnson at the March for Life 2014

Like early last Saturday when I had a beautiful conversation freezing outside an abortion clinic with a couple who was there for an abortion. They were hurting so much, and there were anti-abortion (not pro-life) people yelling at them. They told the boyfriend what a sinner he was and so on. The girlfriend came out crying and you could just see the pain. They were talking in the car for a while, and I smiled at them and waved.

They drove over and we talked right there in the driveway. They were so hurt by the people that were yelling, and I assured them that I believed in them and saw the greatness in them. They so appreciated that, and I gave them contact information for local free clinics to help them out. She told me was was 3 months along and I got excited and showed them the 12 week fetal model I carry in my pocket there. They were fascinated by it. No one ever told them about their baby. But I didn’t dwell on that. I listened to them express their concerns, and I did my best to let them know we cared about them. They ended up driving away without making a final decision, and I pray they know that people out there care.

That moment was so inspiring for me. Their eyes just said everything. They could see that we aren’t all haters out there to condemn. In what little time I had with them, I hope they know they are loved.

It’s when we take the time to love people that amazing things happen. I fail at it constantly, of course. We all do. But I cannot even put into words how incredible it is to be part of something so beautiful and human. That’s the heart of it, and the heart of all my pro-life work. It’s all about loving the person.

Your support means so much to me. Know that through it, you’re helping me to help make the world a better place. Stay tuned for updates on my work and how you can get involved!

Please visit this link to support my work and to share the campaign. Thank you!

Contact me or comment below with any questions.

 

Our Friends, The Saints

Please welcome Sarah Therese, a lovely Catholic gal who is guest posting here today! She’s writing about the awesome network of friends we Catholics have with the saints. If you’re interested in guest posting here, just contact me and I’ll be glad to spread the word on your topic. Thank you again for the post, Sarah!

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I love role models.

No, I’m not talking about Hollywood teen idols, movie stars, or famous athletes.  In fact, I’m talking about people who, for the vast majority, have never personally been on TV, never wrote a blog, never recorded a CD, never so much as had a personal photograph taken, and yet the Church Triumphant (those who are in heaven: Saints) are the “role models” of the Church Militant (those of us here on the earth).  As a Catholic in the 21st century, I have access to the biggest, best, most powerful group of friends anyone ever had.

Best Friends

Though my siblings and I were all named after family members, our names happily match with saint names or, if we don’t have a particular relationship with our name’s saint, we have quite the collection of confirmation saints: Michael the Archangel, Our Lady (yes, she is a saint and, yes, one can choose her for their confirmation), Bernadette of Lourdes, Louis de Montfort, Francis of Assisi, Thérèse of Lisieux (no prizes as to whose that one is), Patrick, and Padre Pio.  Each of my siblings and I (there are 6 of us; my parents’ confirmation saints are included in the collection above) were able to develop a relationship with our saint and choose him or her ourselves.  Each person’s story is a little different and the beautiful thing is that we each have a best friend in heaven who is rooting for us and whom we can count on to help us out when the going gets tough.

Patron Saints

There is a saint for just about every cause you could concern yourself with.  Need help with directions? Call on St. Christopher.  Need help finding something?  St. Anthony’s your man!  Are you in an impossible situation and you just want out? St. Rita’s got your back.  Is there someone in your life (family member, friend, classmate, or ???) who drives you crazy? St. Thérèse of Lisieux has a remarkable solution.  Do you consider yourself a poor student and can’t wait for summer? St. Thomas Aquinas and St. Jean Vianney are great supporters for the cause.  Are you the queen of getting all traffic lights red? Sometimes a quick call to St. Patrick will do the trick.  In need of some humor in your relationship with God? Check out St. Teresa of Avila.  Love the outdoors, can’t get enough of animals, or  a convert to Christianity, but feeling very much alone? Bl. Pier Giorgio Frassati, St. Francis of Assisi, and St. Kateri Tekakwitha just might be able to relate.  The point is, the possibilities are endless and the answers are just a google search away (although, when I googled “patron saint of those who are directionally challenged” the other day, Christopher Columbus came up. El Oh El.)

A shoulder to cry on / a friend to dance, laugh, and scream with / someone there for all seasons

Yup – that’s what the saints are there for.  Though they aren’t likely to physically walk beside you, spiritually and even emotionally, they are there for you and desperately want to pray for you.  Have you ever asked your best friend to say a prayer for your exam the next day, for your impending labor and delivery, for safe travels, or for your grandparent’s chemotherapy? It’s the same scenario: our friends, the saints have already finished the race, kept the faith (2 Timothy 4:7), and are now beholding the beatific vision in heaven, eager and willing to assist us and are ever so happy to pray for our intentions.

Befriend a saint, if you have not already done so, and you will be amazed by the nearness you feel with someone who walked the face of the earth 50, 100, even an entire millennia ago.

God bless you!

Sarah Thérèse is a city girl trying to live out her Catholic faith in everyday busy life and is eagerly anticipating her May 2014 graduation from college.  She blogs about journeying toward a deeper relationship with Christ, and hosts an ongoing series about the Saints, at Footprints on My Heart.