It’s kind of funny how trust changes everything.
I’ve been thinking about the future. A lot. But what’s new? With senior comps (ie. “what you do instead of a thesis”, “a test of everything you’ve learned for your degree”, or “no pressure”) later this month and graduation impending, saying the future is on my mind would be an understatement.
As many soon-to-be-graduates would say, it would be SO nice to have everything set in place right now.
But I don’t.
It’s not that I don’t want to. It’s not for lack of trying. And I’m kind of dying to know what’s in store.
Being in this position is somewhat terrifying as someone who tries to have my life put together. My heart rate does sometimes go up a little bit thinking about OH MY GOSH WILL IT ALL WORK OUT?!?! And yes, I’d like to ask God to swing WIDE open the door he’s guiding me to instead of leaving multiple ones cracked open just a little.
I’d like that clarity, please and thank you.
But clarity is not my prayer right now. Because in reality, I don’t think we often know for certain exactly what we’re supposed to do. We might have an inkling. Sometimes a choice does seem obvious. But mostly life is about learning to take the next step when God calls us to, even if we’re blindfolded. It’s choosing to step out on the tightrope, even when we know we could fall.
It’s learning to trust that no matter what happens, God’s got our backs.
This Lent, I’m not giving up coffee or Facebook. But one of the things I am doing is reading through Rediscovering Jesus. Because that’s what I want to do. That’s what I need to do. I need to remind myself that there is a purpose in life, and that purpose is to get to heaven. If my life isn’t ordered toward that, then other stuff doesn’t matter.
One line that stuck out to me this morning was “God is always waiting on us. Sometimes we may think we are waiting for him, but that is never true.” BOOM.
So this Lent, I’m not thinking about all the things I’m waiting for (okay, trying not to do that), or what I can get out of it, or keeping a checklist of every single thing you must do to make it the best Lent ever and be a good Catholic. I’m trying to focus on the transformation of Lent, better conforming my life to God’s will, and asking myself what things I’m still holding on to that I need to let go. That’s the goal after all, isn’t it?
Kathryn’s reflection this morning is much of what’s in my own mind. Lent isn’t about the checklist and seeing just how penitent we can force ourselves to be. It’s about reminding ourselves of our need for God and changing our lives to reflect that. As the first reading tells us today:
“Even now, says the Lord, return to me with your whole heart”
That’s what I’m up to: trying to return my heart to the one who created it. I’m praying for trust, and for all the intentions I’ve been given – that we all would learn to find that peace of surrender. That we would remember the beauty of our faith, of God who created us, and of this season. If you have any intentions I can remember, comment below or contact me. How has your Lent started out today?
Here’s to a new beginning.
14 thoughts on “When trust changes everything”
Beautiful reflection, Laura! So many beautiful truths you touched on! My Lenten journey will look pretty similar to yours. Prayers for your Lenten journey and please pray for mine!
Thanks, Amanda! I love that we’re all on the journey together.
Such a Beautiful reflection. I pray you have a blessed Lent. You will be in my prayers.
Thank you, Anjelina! Prayers right back at you.
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What am I holding on to that I need to let go. That’s a great question. Pondering it today. 🙂
Thanks, Leigh – letting go is so hard but worth it!
SO true – God always has our back 🙂
He does, so I have to ask myself why it’s so easy to forget?! Thanks for stopping by.
I think you should do whatever will draw you closer to God at Lent. I am Protestant, but our family is observing Lent this year, trying to draw attention to the importance of Easter. Great post!
Thanks, Tara! There’s so much observing Lent and Easter does to enrich our faith. Thanks for stopping by!
So beautiful and totally inspired by Kathryn too!
Thanks, Nell! It’s so awesome to see everyone’s perspective on this season.
It’s good to see you back into your blog! I love this! This week I texted a friend and told her that I keep getting the nudge from God to let go and trust Him more. The quote you referenced is amazing. How true that God waits on our “yes” to do His will, and not the other way around.
Yay, good to see you too! It’s awesome to be back. I could sit and think about that statement for a long time…doesn’t it feel like we’re waiting on God sometimes? Gah! I’m going to think about that more. And yes to letting go. So hard but so worth it.
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